something doesnt feel right today…i worry. i fear.
i am afraid. the oldest premonitions seem to be creeping in again.
they are there. but not yet.
i want to show that i trust, and yet i continue to fear.
i want to show that i am brave, but i am dwindling.
i want to say these words but i am keeping them from being said.
there is something that i want. i am telling myself it is impossible.
i fear. of rejection. of humiliation. of pain.
if only u cud see me. read me. feel me.
what i want is with u. and i cud only have dat if u wud give it me.